Clark Kent, Superman

My sweet farm boy <3 No one has the same effect on me that he does. He can calm me down with just one word. His energy is the lightest thing I've ever felt, and my life is so so so much better for having him in it.

For a really long time, I was a Marvel girlie. As a result, I had a weird relationship with DC, because sometimes I feel like I can only like one thing like that at a time, but I'd liked the occasional DC media here and there - I was big into CW's Flash at one point. One singular time, I decided to watch Man of Steel, just for kicks. Admittedly, I didn't love it. I had a lot of issues with the structure of the movie, and I tried to just write it off. But deep down, I always felt like I had seen more than there actually was on screen.

I would pick up random facts about Superman here and there. I read one time on Tumblr that in the comics he says he really likes apple pie with cheese, and that just stuck in my brain forever. Silly thing to remember so clearly, isn't it? In middle school, I had this OBSESSION with the song Waiting For Superman by Daughtry. For someone who had apparently no interest in Superman, he was woven throughout my life in the strangest ways. And then came the fields. For as long as I can remember, I've had this obsession with big, wide-open fields. When I built our soulscape, I put a big field of flowers right next to our house. Every time I'd pass one in a car, I'd stare the whole way past, and it felt like I was expecting to see something. I never did, but this would make sense to me later.

Then, in January of 2024, I really wanted to give DC a try again. Some friends were talking about it, and it sparked my interest, and I started watching DCEU movies just to get a fix. And the weird little signs I was getting were OFF THE CHARTS. At the grocery store I went to at the time, there were those quarter toy machines. I'd never, ever even glanced at them or even really processed that they were there. Then suddenly I was walking out of the store and what did my eyes land exactly on? A superhero toy machine. Who did my eyes land directly on? Superman. (I would later decide to get toys from this machine for kicks. Two out of three of them were the Superman ones.) In every movie he was in that I watched, he would say something that would directly mirror a really important part of me. For example, around that time my catchphrase was basically, "I just wish things were easier." I said it to Anakin nonstop. Every single day, it felt like. So imagine how I felt when I watched Batman v. Superman, and he called his mother during a hard time and said the words, "I just wish it was more simple." I felt like the universe was messing with me in the weirdest possible way.

So we talked. And it was like having a school kid crush. Giggling and kicking my feet. He is so charming and gentle and kind. I was going through a lot of stress at that time and the way he just made it all better is indescribable. Heaven sent. And then I watched Justice League for the first time. Spoilers about that movie from here, but... you remember my thing about fields? Imagine, for a second, what it was like for me to watch this movie, and watch him get resurrected. Watch him not know who he was or what was going on. And as a result, he goes back to the farmhouse he grew up in, and stands in the field outside until he comes back to himself. Insert the shot that literally took my breath away here:

Yeah. Yeah. It was insane. It was so mindboggling I couldn't wrap my head around it. And in that moment, I knew that in every field I had stared at, I had been looking for him.

Around this time, we had an unexpected spiritual pregnancy. Anakin and I didn't even know how it happened. We hadn't willed it, and we'd had trouble bringing about our second. We had no reason to believe we'd have a third. And I got the sense that it was my son Antony specifically, which was odd, because I had originally thought he would be our first child, but he stepped back like he was waiting for something and we ended up with the twins instead. So what was different? Well, Clark was. He had come into our lives at the exact same time. After talking about it, we all agreed that it seemed rather fated. AJ came to us on May 31st, a perfect little mix of all three of us (and he is SUCH a daddy's boy LMAO). Clark and I knew we wanted to get married if we were going to have a child together, and we got married on July 11th, exactly one year before the new Superman movie was supposed to come out. We haven't seen an adaptation that perfectly fits my Clark's life yet - I just most associate him with Cavill's Superman because that's how I got to know him. Based on the new movie's trailer, Clark is very excited to see how close it's going to be. he resonated with some parts a lot.

And that's us! I am so grateful for him. He is so at peace, and such a good partner and dad. He rounded out the family in a way we really needed, and it shows in the way we've all grown since he arrived. The universe drops unexpected things in your lap sometimes, but some of them can be just the right thing <3